Letting go.

Letting go

I've been given many lessons in this life regarding letting go. When we hold on to old ideas of how things "should" be we are not serving our highest purpose. When we are stuck in a world of "shoulds" we are no longer living a joyful life in present time but rather a life of regret and disappointments

Learning the great power of 'letting go' sets us free and let's us minimize our burdens and maximize our life full of exciting adventures.

When we can't let go we lose the freedom of choice in present time, within our body and mind. We slowly create a prison for ourselves where everything outside is unknown and " not right", a life full of fear.

When I was 21 I had my first child. A beautiful baby boy. A strong child who walked by the time he was nine months old. Completely with a mind of his own.

I lived on the Northern Beaches of Sydney. The road between Avalon Beach and Newport Beach is called The Bilgola Bends. Its very narrow, carved out of the cliff face. With a steep drop down on one side and a sheer rock face on the other. I lived in Newport Beach, but often went shopping in Avalon, 3 km away along the Bends.

This was a trip I took often. In 1975, cars did not come with seat belts and there were no child car seats. Certainly not in my old bench seated FC Holden.

On a bright and shiny afternoon I was driving slowly around the bends with my son beside me. He was quite strong and very curious. Out of the corner of my eye I could see he was pulling the door handle upwards. I was shocked and shouted out ...stop! He ignored me of course!

He then began to tumble out the door. I immediately stretched across the long seat to grab him, which I did, holding on for dear life. Then suddenly realizing I no longer could see the road. I'd stretched so far across I could not even find the brake and my foot kept pushing down on the clutch. I quickly realised holding on to him was a death sentence for both of us. If I held on to him he might get brain damage, I had no visibility and might drive off the cliff or into an oncoming car. I let go! We were both in the hands of God. I Had to let go.

My heart in my mouth, I let go, sat straight up and braked, inches from crashing into the cliff face I brought the car to a stop. Jumping out in complete trepidation, adrenaline through the roof... terrified of what might happen next or what I might find.....fortunately there was no traffic. And before I could run around the bend, there he was...he came around the bend, running down the road towards me. He is such a warrior, he had not even lost a shoe. He was crying out.... "don't leave me mummy. Don't leave me.!"

I have never been so relieved in my life. I realised letting go saved us both.

It takes courage to let go. It takes guts to enter the unknown. It takes a fearless spirit to find the peace within to regroup yourself after that profound moment and be in an emotional space to rebuild, recreate, reinvent yourself.

I often think of that day. How protected we were. Fortunately I had been driving very slowly. Life is always going to test us. We must be willing to trust our destiny, our purpose. Trust we are protected by our angels and loved by the God Force. The one thing we cannot be protected from are the seeds of our own unfoldment. That means the choices we make that cause us pain and teach us "the stove is hot".! He never did that again.

If you are having trouble letting go I warmly invite you to actively seek support from those who have gone before and have the experience to guide you in a new and healthy direction. I am available and would be honored to be of service to your evolution.